I felt inferior for 17 years
Wen / MEng yaacra
The growth ring of time has gone through 27 years, but only 10 years have really given good time
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Xiaoya, female, only 3 kg at full-term birth
Although the rural areas in the past 90 years have not been so poor, there have been many “ 10000 Yuan account ”, However, every life is a passive choice of birth. Xiaoya was born in a family that could not even meet food and clothing, and she was a son preference family
At that time, Xiaoya’s mother was pregnant with fried dough sticks in boiling water sent by her mother’s family. Her grandparents liked her grandchildren, so they gave all the food to the second uncle who gave birth to her son
Therefore, Xiaoya has been thin since childhood. Being thin makes people feel distressed. Every time she went to her neighbor’s house, her aunt would kindly give her some steamed bread, or a kilo of corn kernels, or the old clothes worn by her sister &hellip& hellip;? Every time she took these things, Xiaoya was very sad.
There is an inferiority complex called poverty.
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In primary school, Xiaoya’s grades were surprisingly good, but she was surprisingly silent. Because only she has no pocket money, no butterfly hairpins, no long fried dough twist braids, and even the tuition fees are in arrears for half a year. The little girl was sensitive, nervous and laughed at by her classmates. She lost her childhood smile. The girls in the class are jealous of her. Because parents always compare Xiaoya’s grades with their own, they don’t play with her. Xiaoya is more and more silent
One day, Qingqing came to Xiaoya. Xiaoya, let me play with you. You teach me math. I’ll give you my hairpin! So Qingqing became Xiaoya’s first friend. At that time, Qingqing told her that her big eyes looked like little swallows, but Xiaoya didn’t have a TV at home and didn’t know who the little swallows were, but she knew that it must be a beautiful thing to be like a person on TV.
Only with Qingqing, Xiaoya is smiling, dare to walk with her head up, and can smell the fragrance of flowers. Qingqing makes Xiaoya’s world a little more colorful. This color is Xiaoya’s whole childhood.
There is a kind of inferiority complex, that is, there are few friends because of poverty
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It’s time for junior high school. Xiaoya was admitted to junior high school once, but Qingqing had to go to the sixth grade to go to junior high school again because she failed in one subject. Therefore, Xiaoya entered junior high school alone
Although Xiaoya is poor, she is neatly dressed. A teenage girl has inherited the good genes of a beautiful mother. Her big eyes are more and more beautiful, her dimples are more and more obvious, and her appearance is more beautiful. At the age of first love, she received a love letter like a ship, a plane, or a butterfly, but Xiaoya didn’t open any. Because she has a boy she likes
However, one day, the boy she liked bought Santa Claus for her and asked Xiaoya to stay with him. Although Xiaoya’s heart was pounding with excitement, she never accepted the boy’s confession because she knew that Santa Claus wanted more than 100 yuan. The boy’s family had money, and she was too poor. She couldn’t afford expensive gifts for him, she couldn’t afford beautiful clothes, and she had no conditions to be with him
There is a kind of inferiority complex, that is, they dare not love because they are poor.
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My mother has always told Xiaoya that you are so thin and small that you need to study hard to get out of the countryside. Otherwise, you will be ruined in your life if you stay in the countryside and face the Loess and face the nature like us!
Xiaoya was afraid to fall in love. She devoted herself to her studies and graduated from the third day of junior high school. With a score of 4 points higher than the score line, Xiaoya was admitted to the best high school in the county. That year, Xiaoya became famous. Even the villagers within a five mile radius praised Xiaoya as a wonderful girl when they saw her! Xiaoya thought that she was finally promising and went out of the countryside. However, she came to the county for the first time. There were busy streets in the city, endless streams of vehicles she had never seen, and names that the students could not understand. Caiyilin, she&hellip& hellip; It makes Xiaoya more and more afraid. People in the city call Xiaoya “village girl”
There is a kind of inferiority complex called “village girl”
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At the age of 16, Xiaoya fell into a deep contradiction
For example, many students in the class do not rely on scores at all, but on spending money to buy scores
For example, the junior high school teacher said that if you enter high school, you will enter the university with one foot. However, the senior high school teacher said that the battle has not yet begun. If you want to enter university, you should now learn to learn self-study, repeatedly practice and constantly simulate, because you are competing with hundreds of thousands of candidates
For example, classmate a seems to play every time, but she can get the top three in the exam. She studies every day, but she is always in the top 10
For example, why are they talking about dolphin bay lovers and what the hell is it?
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Because she was poor, she could not afford to buy books. Because she was poor, she had no TV at home and no friends. She knew nothing except the contents of the textbooks.
At this time, Xiaoya is not inferior, but autistic! After a semester, only one girl in the dormitory knew her in a class of more than 100 people. She just knew her! One eats, one buys, and one reviews. She has never spoken to anyone.
There is an inferiority complex called too little knowledge!
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In the past 16 years, Xiaoya has been carrying such a psychological burden, resulting in low self-esteem caused by poverty. Because they are poor, they have no food to eat and depend on others for handouts. Because she was poor, no one played with her, so her heart was fragile and sensitive. Because they are poor, they dare not fall in love with each other and suppress their hearts. Because she was poor and had little knowledge, she felt that she was out of tune with others. All this made her feel inferior and could not lift her head!
If 16 is the flowering season and 17 is the rainy season
In the flower season of Xiaoya, it is full of haze
In the rainy season, Xiaoya slowly blossoms
At the age of 17, the school library was opened. It had everything from classics to essays to novels to magazines. The magazines were updated once a week, and other categories could be borrowed for a long time. Like discovering the new world, Xiaoya is curious about the world in reading. At first, she watches it in her spare time, and then she watches it in self-study. Later, some history and geography classes that they were not interested in also secretly watched.
The Sahara story written by Sanmao
Zhang Ailing’s sad love
If you are well in linweiyin’s works, it will be sunny
Super girl voice champion liyuchun
Taiwanese idol S.H.E
Jay Chou, who is famous for singing the double stick
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Xiaoya seems to have found some answers here. All the excerpts from the manuscript are some nice lyrics, some beautiful sentences, and all the new things she has never heard of
At the age of 17, her childhood playmate Qingqing was also admitted to Xiaoya’s school. It was a great pleasure to meet her again. Qingqing told Xiaoya about those idol stories, those hot TV dramas, and sang those nice songs
Xiaoya tells Qingqing about her past love affairs. Qingqing encourages Xiaoya to communicate with her classmates. Slowly, slowly, because the information she sees in those books makes Xiaoya have a topic, because Qingqing’s encouragement gives Xiaoya courage. Xiaoya seems to have become a real 16-year-old girl, with a bright smile, a warm heart and some sincere friendship. It seems that her heart has been opened. These books and these people have made Xiaoya see a different world. She is happy, excited and joyful. She will laugh in her dreams. At the age of 17, the beauty belonging to Xiaoya has just begun.
This year, Xiaoya learned that poverty should not be the main reason for others to look down on you. Your sincerity, your insight and your vision determine how many friends you can have.
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At the age of 19, Xiaoya was walking on the campus of the University, suddenly confused. When I applied for a major, I chose a subject with the highest score because I didn’t know anything, applied chemistry. However, when I went to school, I found that it was totally different from what I understood. After graduation, I either went to the chemical plant or went to the laboratory to do scientific research, which was a torment for the beautiful Xiaoya. There are so many careers in the world and so many wonderful things in life. Why do you choose such a boring industry? What should I do after graduation?
Later, Xiaoya saw in the book that she should do the work she is interested in so that she can keep her enthusiasm for the work. The question is, what are you interested in?
As a result, the library has become a popular place for Xiaoya. From the first floor to the fourth floor, from natural science, success studies, to nutrition, career planning, after turning over the books of each category, Xiaoya finally found the category she was interested in: health preservation
In the next two years, in addition to the regular professional course examination and computer examination, Xiaoya also obtained CET-6 (non-English major examination CET-4 is OK), dietitian certificate, senior beautician certificate and Putonghua certificate, which are all prepared for later career selection
At the senior job fair, Xiaoya finally entered a beauty and health training industry in Guangdong Province as a training instructor with the first place in the non professional category, and became the first girl in the class to boast about her career.
An excellent training instructor should be able to give lectures, have clear thinking, have aura, be confident, and constantly output high-quality content. In order not to be lost by interns in the same period, Xiao Ya only slept for three hours every night during her internship, and dreamed of practicing how Yin and Yang falter, practicing the course thinking framework &hellip& hellip; Finally, I successfully passed the internship and became a qualified lecturer.
Three years later, Xiaoya became the training manager of the company. Who knew that she had been inferior for 17 years? The girl who once felt inferior and could not raise her head grew up to be a shining girl on the podium after she changed her cognition, increased her insight and worked hard for her goal!
Xiaoya clearly knows that she has grown into what she is now
Thanks to the library in high school, it gave her insight
Thanks to the university library, it has broadened her horizons
I want to thank my childhood playmate Qingqing, who gave her a smiling childhood and a rainy season
The most important thing to thank is yourself! The self who yearns for change, the self who focuses on interests and goals, and the self who always strives for good! There is always someone who wants to be beautiful and rich. Why not you? (source: Jianshu)
To all people with low self-esteem, there is no unforgettable low self-esteem. I have been low in self-esteem, but that doesn’t affect me